in the mirror

some say eyes are the windows of the soul.
facing my reflection naked and alone
unable to look myself in the eyes
afraid to face myself,
afraid what i might see
i screamed into the night.
WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU SO AFRAID OF?
im scared of nothing...
that beyond my eyes
is hollow worthless dusty space.
a soulless vacuum.
EVERYONE HAS A SOUL NICOLE
i am scared i have a soul...
lying twisted,sick and deformed
seeping poison into my heart and my mind.
i'm scared nothing good is waiting for me
beyond those eyes , through those windows.
-july 24, 2004